A simple 3 card spread today which I’ve adapted from Glass Owl’s ‘What Matters’ spread which can be found on Aeclectic Tarot.
What lies before me? King of Bolers
Another king – this time it is the equivalent to the King of Pentacles. He looks the consummate professional – smartly dressed, an air of confidence. He has had some success at what he does. This card bodes well for my future plans. He has had to work hard to achieve his success but it is something which is enduring. This man is able to provide for his family.
There is a dual meaning here for me – it represents the real possibility that I will have to rely on my husband to provide for me financially, at least for a short time. As a modern woman, there is a part of me that feels very uncomfortable to be financially dependent and not be able to pay my share of the bills.
The other meaning that comes out of this is the potential to build success in the future. I may be able to look back and wonder what all the angst was about.
What lies within me? Death
The Grim Reaper stares out faceless as the caravan burns. Well, what a cheery card to pull in this position. 🙂 Actually, I can see this card being highly relevant as I let go of an old life and seek to transform my circumstances. The last year has taken its toll on my physical and mental health and it is good that this ‘dies’. There is a strange feeling of liberation and of possibilities opening up. Being able to watch something you held dear for a long time crumble around you is a blow to your sense of self. Who am I if I’m not that person anymore? So often our identity is tied up in what we do. I can no longer call myself what I did before and it leaves a strange hole while I work out what will replace it. Interestingly, I felt this desire for ‘death’ – a huge sweeping change – for a long time but have resisted its call.
How does what lies within me manifest in my life? Ten of Chivs
So it seems that my desire for a change in circumstances, for a huge overhaul in my life, has decided to manifest in a way which forces me to change. It carefully points out that things could not get any worse and therefore I should make the change because things will only improve from here on in. This card is also a very literal reference to the fact that I have been ‘stabbed in the back’. It is not something that is likely to be investigated in any detail as it has happened to others before. Like the victim, I have been ‘killed’ with so many sword thrusts it’s difficult to know which is the fatal blow.
Still, I have been in this place before and used it spur me forward and change what needed to be changed. Each time I tweak a little more but always there is the feeling that Death will come calling again.